06/10: Limbo
The Tough Decision is in a state of limbo at the moment - quite stressful as we need to decide what we're going to do, and decide soon.
I had an ante-natal appointment yesterday, which gave me a good chance to chat things over with the medical bods. The conclusion we've reached is that either we need to make our move and get it all done by mid-December (when I will be six months pregnant) or wait until 3 months after baby is born. The advice was that if we proceed in that period between the New Year and baby's due date, that the risk to mine and baby's health is significant.
At the moment things seem to be moving too slowly to get going before Christmas (though we hope that we might get some signs of progress any day soon) so either we'll have to wait until June, or just throw money at the problem and get the ball rolling sooner.
I had an ante-natal appointment yesterday, which gave me a good chance to chat things over with the medical bods. The conclusion we've reached is that either we need to make our move and get it all done by mid-December (when I will be six months pregnant) or wait until 3 months after baby is born. The advice was that if we proceed in that period between the New Year and baby's due date, that the risk to mine and baby's health is significant.
At the moment things seem to be moving too slowly to get going before Christmas (though we hope that we might get some signs of progress any day soon) so either we'll have to wait until June, or just throw money at the problem and get the ball rolling sooner.
01/10: Tough Choices
Isn't it always the way - just as life settles down and you think you know where things are going, something comes along and hits you broadside. All at once your hopes and expectations are blown away and you find yourself wondering how the hell you're going to cope and what the hell you're going to do and re-planning and re-assessing and most of all PANICKING.
I can't really go into the nitty gritty until we've decided what we're going to do - this blog is more for me to get my thoughts and emotions into some sort of perspective. Some of you know what it's about, and I'm grateful that you've been around for me to confide in, be a shoulder to cry on when the initial shock hit, and to help convince me that these things happen for a reason and that ultimately we'll find a way to deal with it and it will all be OK. If you are one of those people, please don't give away in the comments what I'm blathering on about. I'll reveal all when I'm good and ready and when we've made our decision. In reality, there's probably only one choice we can make. And it's a scary one.
Now Geoff's home it's a lot easier - it seems easier to be rational, and I'm starting to see more and more reasons why the decision to do the difficult thing, whilst likely to be very, very stressful, could bring benefits in the long run. I feel more positive now, and more able to cope. I know that whatever happens, Jess has a level of resilience that never ceases to amaze me, and she will come through this fine.
I worry about the stress - especially during the rest of this pregnancy. But I've got a great support network of family and friends, both close by and online, who have already proved invaluable. Thank you all.
Fingers crossed...
I can't really go into the nitty gritty until we've decided what we're going to do - this blog is more for me to get my thoughts and emotions into some sort of perspective. Some of you know what it's about, and I'm grateful that you've been around for me to confide in, be a shoulder to cry on when the initial shock hit, and to help convince me that these things happen for a reason and that ultimately we'll find a way to deal with it and it will all be OK. If you are one of those people, please don't give away in the comments what I'm blathering on about. I'll reveal all when I'm good and ready and when we've made our decision. In reality, there's probably only one choice we can make. And it's a scary one.
Now Geoff's home it's a lot easier - it seems easier to be rational, and I'm starting to see more and more reasons why the decision to do the difficult thing, whilst likely to be very, very stressful, could bring benefits in the long run. I feel more positive now, and more able to cope. I know that whatever happens, Jess has a level of resilience that never ceases to amaze me, and she will come through this fine.
I worry about the stress - especially during the rest of this pregnancy. But I've got a great support network of family and friends, both close by and online, who have already proved invaluable. Thank you all.
Fingers crossed...
